Yes that is right despite being vaccinated I got myself infected with the latest Corona virus. It started with a light flu and that is what I thought at the beginning it would be. It is just a light flu nothing serious just what you get around this time of the year, when the days are still warm, but the nights are already cold. However two self tests and one PCR test later it was clear I had Covid 19.
Now when I got Covid I went through those five stages of grief – denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. Not in the same depth as in case of real grievance, but similar. I started with denial or better hope that it really would just be a flu, but when the result of the PCR test came, the anger came as well. “Why me?” there were so many people at that event, why did I get it and they didn’t.
Finally I accepted the fact and tried to make my peace with it. However there is one more element that comes to the process and that is guilt. I feel guilty having brought that virus home. Luckily neither my kids nor my wife got infected, but still I put them in harm’s way and that depresses me.
Also I totally destroyed their plans for the week. My kids had invitations and activities planned, which all had to be cancelled. They were stuck at home while their friends had fun somewhere else. Ok nowhere days you can make it up partially by simply allowing them to play video games longer or let them watch more Netflix than usual. But still whatever their plans were, they went down the drain the moment I got my test result back.
The question is – how long will it take until I forgive myself for that.
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